Alone time

I just watched a movie. A really sad movie. A movie called By My Side by jinnyboytvfilm. It is very relatable because it was made by Malaysian. It was about a couple going through high school, falling in love and always being there every single time. But then, the man chose to study overseas. It break the girl's heart because she always thought that he would be there for her and graduate together, go to work together and get married. However, the man chose to leave the country. He asked her to go with him but that was not her choice. She wanted to stay in Malaysia because she did not want to do things that she do not want to do. She believed with her choice, and they promised that things will work out and they would eventually get to be together again. I cried. A lot. Why? Because long distance relationship was hard. It's really hard not being able to see someone you love when you want to see them and it's hard to contact them especially when both were busy. To work things out, both need to be strong and believe. Trust each other. Back to the movie, so the man went to college at Australia. Both of them spend time together through phone calls and facetime every single day. They felt so happy to talk with each other. It feels like distance would never break them apart.
   Days by days, months by months, he's getting busy with his studies, forgetting his promises to talk with his girlfriend and had no time for her. He get bored, slowly spending his time with his friends, and start ignoring her calls. Little did he knew that she always waiting for his calls. And eventually she gave up. She stopped loving him. She asked for break up. He was surprised. He did not know why they had to breakup. He was actually book the ticket flight to go see her but she left him and break his heart. It feels so heartbreaking seeing unrequited love. They should have been together despite some challenges that they had to go through, despite the long distance relationship. She had hard time to move on but eventually find herself and get to be who she always wanted to be. She found another man and they would be married. So she met her ex boyfriend, they talked after a long time they had not seen each other,and she gave him a wedding invitation card, as well as asking him to sing a song during her wedding. Back when they were in high school prom, the man sang a love song to the girl and promised to sing the song on their wedding. But how cruel was that to ask for your exboyfriend to sing a song at your wedding? Hahaha. For me it is so not appropriate. And guess what? The man in the story was still fall in love with her. It was heartbreaking seeing him singing on her wedding, crying while seeing her getting married with other person. He began to dream what it feels like if he did not left the country, probably they would study together, work together and get married. The first love was not perfect but that teached you what love means. They cannot change the past. Past is past. I cried so hard seeing the movie.
   I always know love is not like a movie. Love is to keep trusting and believing your beloved person and have a commitment to always work things out together. I may lack a few things but i always try my best to be the one for him. I dont want to ever give up on him, on us. I believe he is my choice, my only person that I always trust and love. Happiness is being with the beloved person through any circumstances. And i promise I will be the one , the only one for you, and be the best of myself for you, my love.